I wanted to thank you all for your comments. It seems there is a lot of methadone info out there and a lot of people who ultimately accept it as a tool. I think I am stuck in the stigma of methadone as a failure. I guess it doesn't really matter if he is doing it or not, what matters is what he does with his time. What he does for his recovery program, what he does to fix what is broken. I guess most of all I have yet to see that start, and that is what I am waiting for. I am afraid that the methadone will be seen as a get out of jail free card- and that he wont do all the other spiritual work he should do. So, that's what matters most to me. Methadone, or no methadone- I want, need, to see him do the work. And all I see is him high. Actions speak LOUDER than words.
Thanks again for all of your support and info on this. All of you rock.
Thanks again for all of your support and info on this. All of you rock.
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actions do speak louder than words he talks about it... but all i see is him high.. im with you.
I totally hear where your at with this,.. I've witnessed it being abused before as well. The motivated, sick of being sick and tired ticket. In my experience with it, it WAS the get out of jail card. There was no other work being done becides getting up early to go dose each day. Oh yes, lets not forget making appointments for the phychiactrist so they can "fail to mention" they're addicts and manipulate them into prescribing the pills that go along with the methadone,.. the kolonipin and Xanix,.. which in my observations, seems to get them JUST as high as the dope did,.. nodding out and all. Then, unfortunately, after many months being on this,.. he got pissed at the clinic for not lowering his dose, or whatever, quit taking the methadone and was RIGHT back on the dope,.. back to square one,. AGAIN. Talk about cutting off your nose to spite your face. Almost a whole year gone and not a damn thing done,.. not one meeting attended,.. nothing but high as hell the whole time. Whats to follow you ask? Another few years back on the heroin because he never paid the clinic. I guess he finally got tired of it again and is now back on the Methadone,.. same basic story as far as I can tell. A little more work this time,.. I dunno maybe 2-3 meetings in the last 6 weeks? Some behaviors as before. I dont mean to be a party pooper,.. or be negative about this because I'm sure this has real potential to work for some people,.. the ones that REALLY want it and are willing to do the work to make it successfull, (not half heartely) but if his body mind and spirit arent in it,.. if he's not truly doing the rest of the shit he needs to do to heal,.. I think the methadone is basically a substitute,..the ol' switcheroo,. just a cheaper one. Sorry, I didnt have a better experience to share about,.. it is what it is in this case. I hope you guys have a better tale to tell about it someday, and I hope THIS time,.. its better.
We do rock, don't we?
What do you have to lose, if MMT doesn't work the worst thing that could happen is he ends up an addict... so go for it.
LHWW is right though about MMT abuse without a recovery program or dedication to the treatment. MMT often gets a bad rap because addicts use the program as a refuge, but continue their addict ways. It happens, but people go to rehab for alcoholism just to escape jail and come out drinking. People leave AA meetings and drive home with a tall boy yet MMT always gets a worse rap.
I have personally seen with my own eyes that if you WANT methadone to work for you it CAN and WILL the person just has to do the work like with anything else in life.
Is it hard? Of course! Anything in life worth having a "good normal life" is hard to get.
I would say the percentage of people that get on the program and just stay stuck is 3x as many as the ones that want to work and do good.
Most get on because they either cant afford the dope, or they have a court case hanging over there heads, or they look at Methadone as a free fix.
Then they go and pop the pills such as Xanax and Klonapin and get more stoned. Im sorry but that dope high look on a persons face is horrible. I dont even want to think of what i have looked like in the past. Im sure that in MY SICK MIND I thought I looked good, meanwhile you could have seen the whites of my eyes from them rolling into the back of my head.
Im sorry Im rambling I can go on and on......
I wish my man had stuck with methadone. I think he'd be working now if he had. Plus, at the clinic where he was going, they offered counseling, which I think would have eased him into NA or AA.
Somebody, please come get his dumbass and take him to NA.
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